Thursday, July 3, 2008

Truant

Deliberate or otherwise, your reckless stunt bruised me. It punctured deeper than I'd care to admit. But I am conceited and is not given to admitting defeat without first entertaining an amicable alternative to resolve all tangled thoughts and foolish acts. I ruled out judgment; I anticipated simple gestures of courtesy. Is it too much to expect? I don't think so. So I held my breath. Waiting led to minutes that dissolved into hours and hours bloomed into days and days drifted into tongueless limbos and only the elongated silence that amplify these aches can prove that you once existed. A belated apology surfaced and I somehow debated the merit of the expressed sincerity, hoping for both our sakes that it was just an inevitable human lapse during an excited rush and a moment of weakness. If one should insist on accounting for all the hurt reaped from the easy episodes (and that barbed beginning) then we have a blurry ledger to audit. Is it too late? Slowly it's dawning upon me: We both have cowardice to tame, and you toss unnecessary apologies to mend your embarrassment. Eventually all this will float into forgotten corners and we will both resume breathing freely in different compartments of our individual lives. Until then, the key you tossed under the door will lie quietly on top of my desk. Its contours glowing softly, much like the mellow timbres of your first hello.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

hindi kasi nagbabasa ng maigi
tsk tsk
:)



.xG

igno said...

Is this moreover dover or something new like nu hampshire's sullen atmosphere? My friend, my friend, sorry if sometimes I forget to pass-by here. I kept on forgetting how poignant and non nonchallant you really are.

Nice work. Primo...

loudcloud said...

XG! pfft! hahaha :P

igno! thanks for dropping by and leaving a comment. resuscitate your blog! :P

somemalebee said...

the egotistical me thinks this is about me hahahaha

or wishes it is about me...

loudcloud said...

somemalebee!

hahaha. you are more warped that i gave you credit for. hope all is well at your end these days!

Misterhubs said...

Tsige nah. Bati na kayo. Para world peace tayo. World peace and love for all man kind! I am the future of the world. I am the hope of the nation. I am tomorrow's people. I am the new generation! And this is the song we sing to you, this is the song we bring to you...

(Sorry, this is what happens to sleep-deprived a person.)

loudcloud said...

misterhubs!

stay away from caffeine! hahahah.