Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Dipping

Scavenging through forgotten folders of my abandoned old laptop I stumbled upon entries I did for a previous blog and I shrivel in horror. Who wrote all these insane twaddle? I cannot believe I was reading hysterical entries that provoke pure mortification. Good thing I shed the dang thing. Ugh. If ever someone I know in real life find all these sentimental tripe (I blogged in the past) I’ll never live to hear the end of it. “Some things are better off buried for good,” My aunt used to declare. I knew there was more to that pronouncement than her husband’s bell bottom pants.

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Emo Alert: Avoid reading further if you’re not in the mood for downers.
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Human habit would have it to cling stubbornly to a good feeling. You dwell on it, refusing to discard, lingering its welcome, outstaying its passing, intentionally swimming in the last shimmering slivers of warmth.

Eventually you smarten up. You wake up buoyant, assured of newfound resolve never to be vulnerable again. But for now, just for a little longer, your heart sinks, you throb in delicious agony, fluctuating between nostalgia and despair.

3 comments:

ArchieMD said...

ECG reading reads: significant Q wave

Reading this post made me think... made me wonder.
Then it hit me. You are so damn right. Then something deep within caught up. An old feeling... an old myocardial infarction.

loudcloud said...

doc Mcfitch!

aawwwww. so sorry to have reminded you of a raw nerve. never my intention to inflict it.

cheer up! :-)

ian said...

mmm i wonder how much you'd be willing to pay me to not reveal your old blogs hehe